Confession: I’m in a cranky mood today. No reason. Hormones probably. To get out of my “funk” I went for a short walk through the park at lunch today.
I feel like it’s been a really long week. And I wish I could take a few days off from work to de-stress. I foresee this weekend being just as busy as every other weekend. I feel obligated to train hard for Reach the Beach as well.
I’m also craving chocolate like mad. Yesterday AND today there were donuts at work. Confession: I ate 1/4 of a donut yesterday. It was good. And today I ate a 1/4 of a donut as well. Even worse confession: today’s donut was kind of stale but I ate it anyways. SIGH.
While I was walking, I passed by Cupcake Jones.
I stood at the window and drooled a little bit.
Cream Cheese Frosting
It’s taking everything in my power not to eat another stale donut. 😉
Speaking of donuts….if you’ve never heard of Voodoo Donuts, check out the website here: http://voodoodoughnut.com/ It’s kind of a Portland thing. But it was featured on “Man v. Food” not too long ago! 🙂
I’m going swimming after work tonight. I hope it helps my mood!
Okay, don’t leave me hanging! What’s your confession for this week?
Posted in PMS, Portland, Portland Restaurants, swimming, walking
Tagged Chocolate, Cravings, Cupcake Jones, cupcakes, donuts, PMS, Voodoo Donuts
What Makes YOU Happy?
When I was 250+ pounds, I was very depressed. I thought “if only I weighed 150…I’d be happy like everyone else.” It took a lot of hard work but I reached 150. 143 was the lowest my weight got, and I didn’t stay there very long.
I’ve previously mentioned that I put on about 15 pounds this year. In a few weeks I’m going to go back to weighing myself once a month again. While I was losing weight, I weighed myself twice a week. It was a good thing to keep me in check and when I lost weight it made me happy! Seeing a 2, 3, 8 pounds loss made me ELATED! On the flip-side, seeing no loss –or worse–a gain, I’d be depressed and beat myself up for what I ate. I didn’t take into account that I was a woman and certain times of the month we can gain around 5 pounds due to PMS, bloat and water retention.
The reason behind weighing myself only once a month is because I don’t want to get obsessed with the scale. I went through a phase where was I was. It’s an easy trap to fall into but it’s not healthy.
The hard part is learning to love your body no matter what weight you are at. Find joy in losing 5 pounds, being able to walk a flight of stairs without panting, running a mile. I struggle with this every single day. I have good days and bad days. I’m not worried about being “heavy”. I’m athletic and will never be “skinny.”
If you’re having a bad day about how you feel about your body, take a few minutes to look up pictures of professional athletes. They are NOT skinny (well, maybe the marathon runners). My favorites are Michael Phelps and Serena Williams. Serena Williams is a massive woman. Have you ever seen her THIGHS? Dang! But you know what, she’s healthy!
It’s a hard thing to accept sometimes. Athletes aren’t skinny. You need food as fuel. Simple, right? Then why am I so hungry all the time?!